Healing the Mind: My Journey with the Morrígan and Airmed

We all face our own battles, and a few years ago, I found myself in the throes of what I can only describe as "Merlin's Madness"—a dark and disorienting period within my own mind. It was a time of deep struggle, and honestly, I wasn't sure how I'd find my way out. But sometimes, when we're at our lowest, ancient wisdom reaches out. For me, that wisdom came in the forms of the Morrígan and Airmed, not as gods to be worshipped, but as the First Ancestors I venerate.

The Morrígan: A Guiding Force Through Darkness

When the darkness felt like it would consume me, the Morrígan entered my life. She’s often seen as a formidable figure associated with battle, sovereignty, and profound transformation. For me, her presence wasn't about conflict in the physical sense, but about confronting the internal chaos. She didn't offer gentle platitudes; instead, she provided a fierce, unwavering presence that pushed me to face the darkest corners of my mind. It was her energy that helped me acknowledge the depths of my "madness" and find the strength to begin the arduous climb out. Her role as a First Ancestor resonated deeply—a primal force that understands the raw, untamed aspects of existence and can guide you through them.

Airmed: The Gentle Hand of Healing

As I began to navigate the treacherous path to recovery, my first matron, Airmed stepped in as a vital presence. Known in Irish tradition as a healer, deeply connected to herbs and the restoration of life, she brought a different kind of energy to my healing journey. Where the Morrígan challenged me to confront, Airmed soothed and mended. She represented the gentle, restorative power needed to stitch myself back together, bit by bit. Her ancestral wisdom reminded me of the inherent capacity for healing within nature and within myself. It was a beautiful balance: the Morrígan’s power to break through stagnation, followed by Airmed’s nurturing touch to rebuild.

Veneration, Not Worship

It's important for me to articulate that my relationship with the Morrígan and Airmed, and the Tuatha in general isn't one of traditional worship. I don't see them as deities in the conventional sense, but as First Ancestors. They embody for me, the energies and ancient wisdom completely plugged into the Mother, Danu. For me, venerating them means honoring the profound lessons they represent—the courage to face adversity, the wisdom to heal, and the understanding that both fierce transformation and gentle restoration are necessary for true well-being.

Through their guidance, I navigated the shadows of my mind and emerged into the light. My journey with the Morrígan and Airmed stands as a testament to the power of connecting with ancestral energies and finding profound healing in unexpected places.

Now at 60's I work deeply with these two noble Sidhe.